filograstim

i have to give myself these shots once a day for 4 days.

and there is something really counterintuitive about sticking a needle in your own stomach. i don't know how drug addicts, self-mutilators or suicide attemptors manage to do that stuff regularly.

that instant just before you stick yourself is always really tough. i hesitate. for a second, just before the needle breaks the skin, i stop. i almost can't do it.

then i manage.

it's like all those other counterintuitive things i guess, drinking coffee, smoking cigarettes, drinking alcohol or taking drugs. you get used to it.

weird.